While I’m exploring my feelings, let’s talk about this:
A few weeks ago, in response to my excited chatter about getting a dog, a friend said “I totally know what I’m going to get you for your birthday and Christmas! You’re never going to think of it, so I don’t have to worry that you’ll buy it by accident or get it from someone else, and you’ll totally love it!” I felt a little sick in the moment, the way only an English major does when foreshadowing happens in real life.
So far, at that point, I’d bought a leash and a collapsible dog bowl, for this dog I had not yet met (virtually or otherwise).
So I found the dog I think is going to come home with me a few days ago, while online, and I submitted my application, and I bought a bunch of stuff I found on sale while I waited to hear back. (I’m approved, so if the meeting this weekend goes well, he’s mine! Yay!) And one of the items turned out to be the thing that I was never going think of. Which we discovered yesterday, when she found my post about it on social media. She said “Don’t buy that yet— it’s the thing I was giving you for your birthday/Christmas.”
Except that I had bought it two days earlier and it had already shipped. I knew she’d be disappointed, so I told her as gently as I knew how. I said “If you’ve already bought yours” (my birthday isn’t for two months, so she might not have) “I’ll happily return it. But I also know that these can be expensive, and I paid half of the normal retail price.” So I kind of hated to return my inexpensive one so that she could spend more money on it, because I won’t enjoy it more if I know it stressed her out financially. Which it is likely to— she told me that when she predicted that she’d buy me something I’d never think to buy myself. I told her the reason I thought of it was that I had seen the one she has, and that she totally gets credit for giving me the idea, even though I beat her to the punch.
But now she’s irked with me, which means she throws in snarky comments to every conversation, and I get to enjoy that until she’s past it. Should I have just returned the one I bought? I’m feeling like nothing is as straightforward these days as it should be.